I'm sitting in the middle of chaos and I want out.
I'm in chaos with my job. I feel like I'm useless and stupid when I know that I'm smart and able.
I'm in chaos at church. I fight so hard and work so hard to fit and be fitted, but in the end I'm still placeless.
I'm in chaos with my life. I'm so tired and so drained from everything else, that I want to sleep, but in truth, I really want to stay awake forever to live.
And there is this unreasonably loud banging going on in my work area and my head hurts. Right now that is the chaos I'd like to escape the most.